I decided to zoom out from the specifics of the high school situation and look at the pattern of the four known Exhorter episodes in the 15.5 year cycle to see if I could find some salient data.
I have opted to not detail the other three situations, but in each case, I found that the giving and receiving that is core to community was trashed. Each time it was a different way. It was only the first time I could not receive. In the others, there was community for a period of time, then serious slippage took place through unique circumstances, but each time related to the dynamics of exchange in community.
At times what I had wasn’t wanted. At times what was wanted I did not have or could not ethically give. The enemy was quite creative in producing misalignment in those windows.
The evidence is overwhelming that my intercessor was right and there is a 15.5 year cycle. Now we have language for it. Community gets trashed in one way or another because exchange does not happen the way it should.
Now, there is another piece running in the background.
Of the seven portions of my spirit, the Teacher and the Exhorter were the most damaged. It is quite clear that the damage to the Exhorter portion of my spirit took place on the Exhorter island of Cotijuba, in Brazil, when I was between seven and nine years old. I have spent a LOT of time over the years working through the healing journey from that season.
God has invested massively in restoring my Exhorter portion. I find immense joy in the Exhorter color of the majesty of God which seasons the Prophet’s insights into the structures of Design.
BUT at the time of the first episode, my Exhorter portion was in shambles.
So the enemy leveraged my DID, and my damaged Exhorter portion, and the cultural stuff to cause a wrong response to the dynamics of the school during the first time the cycle came around. That defiled it for the rest of the cycles. Up until now.
After all this digging, it turns out to be a pretty familiar, ordinary curse on a cycle of time.
So what to do?
First, call it what it is. I will be spending some time this evening going over each of the four events, sharing with God my perspective of where the giving and receiving broke down.
Second, I will own my junk and reject inappropriate guilt that others and I have put on myself over the years for those situations.
Third, I will feel the pain one more time. I know I feel really raw about the first episode. Not my fault I was DID. Not my fault I was socially inept in addition to my DID. But the enemy didn’t care. Whether my choices came from woundedness or conscious rebellion, it was enough for him to activate a curse on my cycle of time, and hurt me three more times downstream. I hate him.
Fourth, I will ask God to cleanse the structures on time and to remove any unholy structures that have been built in me.
Fifth, I will mark my calendar for when I am 77 and a half years old and will anticipate holy payback in that cycle for what got ripped off before.
Now, there is a teaser here.
When I did the AHS 3 Practicum in Anaheim, there was a spirit/soul connection between me and the group gathered there that we have never had before. It was remarkable and healthy and addictive. We achieved that again with the first of the live streaming videos from the office. The time with Holy Communion especially was intense that first day.
I have done a whole lot of work already on each of those four situations, without knowing they are connected. Obviously I am in a season now where I should be able to have an exchange of life with community that is significantly above par. Even though I have not done the cleanup work listed above, I think God was honoring the season and giving me a taste of what community could be like in SLG.
The pre-event party in Denver was also highly uncharacteristic of SLG. The ease with which everyone connected was remarkable and delightful.
Our highly cranky, stonewalling landlord has appointed a new manager for our complex who is a delightful gift of Service lady and she is doing community with me like we have never had. I actually had a discussion with Megan the other day asking whether she was real or an angel sent to bless us.
So, I think without the cleanup, God is already allowing some of the life of the season bleed through. With the cleanup done, we could have a dramatic new flavor to SLG. In celebration (by faith) I have embarked on a daring venture with the Exhorter gift on Facebook. I would love to draw 100 people who could commit to this short-term strike force.
And I am REALLY looking forward to Saturday night when we have our third live stream and I share lots of new, fun stuff. I hope God grants us a deep connection where the life of God flows to us and through us to each other.
Then I leave to Austria on Sunday, where I will be ministering to a female Exhorter city, Innsbruck, and a male Exhorter city, Vienna. The later is already sold out, two weeks in advance of the event!
So here is to high expectations of change in the company.
And this is the end of my processing in public about this event. Onward to new things.
Copyright September 2016 by Arthur Burk